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Line dancing on Brooklyn Bridge

2012-03-09T00:01:00.000-06:00

The picture above is me sitting on the Brooklyn Bridge of New York! It was so cold and windy when the picture was taken. Also there were a lot of traffic going underneath the bridge but that was cool. Nothing too terrible happened, I just forgot how to stand up for a while.

Anyway, yes I was in New York recently. It's funny now that I think about everyone wanting to be in New York so badly because it's awesome and all. I was one of them. But it's weird when you're actually there you're not too sure how to feel. I didn't know how to feel, it wasn't fantastic but it wasn't bad either. Oddly enough, I didn't feel like I've seen it all. In short, New York is alright. Frankly, I prefer Chicago.

So to those who haven't been to New York, put all your expectations away. Some people really liked the city and felt that it fulfills all expectations. But some people (like me) wasn't blown away and was maybe a tad disappointed with the city. It's still a nice city! I just don't like it as much as I thought I would, just saying.

Thankfully, it was still a good break - getting away from Kirksville and school. But break is almost over now. I'll hang on and keep my spirits up because home is only two more months from today.

Isn't she lovely?

2012-03-08T00:03:00.000-06:00

Ain't this a beauty? It's my desktop wallpaper now, reminding me of happiness. Unfortunately, one of the ends of it came apart and it's breaking my heart. It's so precious! The minute I get back to my room I'll fix it, I swear.

Thank you again, dearest.

Life

2012-02-23T14:50:00.000-06:00

In life, there will always be trouble and things that annoy you. But if you let it get to you, it'll affect you. Badly. All you have to do is accept it, fix it and get over it. That's the harsh reality of life.

How is everyone's week going?

2012-02-08T16:10:00.000-06:00

I'm learning, I'm adapting and I'm surviving. I won't say it's perfect but I think I'm going somewhere with this. My thoughts are all over the place recently, I'm starting to wonder what's up.

2012-01-19T15:17:00.000-06:00

I've been told that I can be cynical, sarcastic and mean. Here's why:

*phone vibrates*
What??
Hello..
What do you want?
I just want to say goodnight..
Oh..

Those who know me should be able to tell which one is me. Oh and I'm also not into sappy. But every once in a while, admittedly, I do enjoy it.

Only the beginning

2012-01-13T20:30:00.001-06:00

So, the first week of classes has begun and ended. I quite like my schedule this semester, to be honest. I have plenty of free time for homework, which I will not begin to elaborate on because it's piling up already as we speak.

Other than that, it's been quite a week. I think I'm enjoying my classes although I have classes at freaking 7.30a.m. every single day and my teacher wear shorts in the freezing weather. Also, I'm pretty sure my English teacher is a bit cuckoo. Nevertheless, I think I'm enjoying it so far. Hopefully, this optimism will last because the battle has only just begun. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Hope everyone's 2012 is going well!

2012-01-06T00:57:00.000-06:00

I'm not myself and I'm upset. I cannot explain, but I just am. No one gets me, but it's okay. I'll be fine, in time. I know I will.

Of love and life

2012-01-01T17:09:00.001-06:00

The lesson I learned from The Five People You Meet in Heaven,

Lost love is still love. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold on to it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn't. (Albom, 2003)

This goes out to everyone who lost a loved one.

Why hello there, 2012

2011-12-31T21:18:00.000-06:00

I know it's not 2012 here yet in the USA but I'm going to blog anyway because it's 2012 everywhere else in the world! This 2012, I will make the best out of life because it could possibly be the end of the world for us, if the Mayans are correct. So here are my 2012 resolutions!

1. Hit the Rec at least once a week.
2. 4.0 for this semester and hopefully, the following semester as well.
3. Go home to Malaysia and eat real Asian food.
4. Going to places over the summer holidays.
5. Learn to cook a few dishes.
6. Be a better person.

And the list goes on. Have a happy 2012!

Every hour has come to this

2011-12-29T00:17:00.001-06:00

It's that time of the year again where I get all sentimental reflecting back on the year that is coming to an end. To assist this probably long post I'm all wrapped up in my blanket, sipping hot tea and playing some good slow songs on Itunes. This is going to take a while - trying to recall back most of the significant events that occurred in the past 12 months.

I remember being disappointed with my SAM results. Sure, I could still make it to college and it really isn't that bad compared to others. But what really sucked was the fact that I did not meet my own expectations. And for a period of time, that got me procrastinating more than I should be on my college applications. All I could think of was getting a job, taking a break from school. Hence, my first job as a teaching assistant in Kumon.

For the first 7 months of this year, my life revolved around Kumon. I lived and breathed Kumon. What was supposed to be parttime turned out to be a fulltime job which got me working at 3 Kumon centers. Why the dedication, you ask. Honestly, I have no idea myself. The pay isn't great, the colleagues sometimes scared the shit out of me and the bosses can be crazy. So it's the students. Yes, the children are the ones who kept me going back. Their innocence makes it easy to talk to as their response are more genuine compared to adults. Sure they don't have the best ideas but at least I know that they are being sincere, no hidden intentions. Admittedly, I have met many brilliant students who are able to grasp complicated concepts of math in minutes. The other students, on the other hand, don't give up easily until they understood the particular subject. I have to say, it was a learning experience for me to watch them learn and grow. For instance, there was this one boy who hated Kumon. He threw tantrums and copied answers, refusing to learn. When it was time for me to leave, he was a changed boy. He was determined to move on to the next level of math that he did not mind staying an extra hour until he get his correction right. And the last thing he asked me, "Are you ever coming back?" I said maybe. I knew I was never going back to teaching in Kumon but a little part of me wanted to.

Truth to be told, the fact that the students from Kumon are smart and hardworking at the same time intimidated me, e.g. the brilliant girl who I still keep in touch with every once in a while. She's ten and she can factorize numbers faster than I can. Also she's interested in science so much more than I have ever been in my life, I kid you not. Without a doubt, she and all the other students motivated me to go back to school.

As June drew nearer, I was getting nervous. Thoughts about not getting a good offer from university really freaked me out. My problem was that I really wanted to have an education elsewhere but at the same time I have very limited funds. My parents wasted no time as well because they made a deal with me - if I do not receive an offer good enough by mid of June, I was to go to school back at home. Honestly, I thought that was it. No replies seemed to be coming in and I was ready to let go of my dreams of going abroad. However, some time in early June, I received an email from Truman accepting me. Plus a scholarship that solves my financial issue. But, my parents were not very supportive of me going abroad initially. I was literally about to die, trying to convince them to let me go. I was on the verge of giving up. Eventually, my parents gave in and I got everything ready to leave the country. It was a long and tiring process which I would never want to repeat, but was worth it, for it got me to where I am right now.

Right now, I am in Kirksville, Missouri, which is literally halfway across the globe from home. It's almost 5 months now that I have been away from home and the experiences have been crazy. Though I have to say I am glad that I'm finally back to studying, knowing that I have stable priorities and goals to achieve. In spite of all the fun I had, I managed to do alright my first semester here in Truman. Hopefully, that would motivate me to do better for my upcoming semester. I think I had a little bit too much of fun the first semester. But no regrets.

Never in my life have I met the craziest bunch of people all at the same time. You know how we all have that weird friend every once in a while? Try having them all together at once and you will get shitloads of fun. I love how we all get along at the same time we are all so different. We say the weirdest things without cracking up. I think it'll be fun living together next year. It's not going to be easy with 5 girls in a house but we'll be alright. If it gets too crazy, at least I know where I can always escape to. He, who tolerates my craziness and makes good soup. All in all, I am thankful to be here. I met so many wonderful additions to my life, after already having many loved ones.

You know how they say that you don't know what you love most until you lose it? I do. Coming here made me realized that I love my family to death. It didn't hit me until my last day in Malaysia. I still remember the details vividly - everyone crying at the airport and me crying like I never cried before in my life. It was the most awful feeling ever, not having my family and friends around me because they're too far away. Truth to be told, I still cry sometimes thinking about that painful departure. No worries, I'm fine now. I still miss my family and friends very much. In fact, I can't wait to get back next year. It's crazy that I am saying this when I have more than 4 months before going back and especially since the next semester has not started yet. I already made a mental list of things to do when I get back and I will be writing it out soon.

Comparing the person I am now to the person I was earlier this year, I would never expect myself to be here right now. I am more optimistic and I have many wonderful people in my life, whether near or far. I'm learning to be more grateful and appreciative toward the people around me every day. This year, I grew up more than the other years in my life. I got a job and had to manage myself to and at work. I had two trips with two of my group of friends back at home, which taught me a lot about travelling. And I got to leave home, which got me to do many things on my own. As much as I miss my parents doing certain things for me, I'm enjoying my newfound (although not so new now) independence and freedom. Whenever my mom tells me that I have to do things on my own and that's the consequence of wanting to leave home (with the intention of sarcasm), I do not regret a bit. Honestly, doing laundry and cooking can be fun. There's nothing like the smell of clean clothes and the satisfying taste of your own cooked food. (My noodles I made just now was good, just saying)

And that's my 2011. It's been pretty awesome.

I hope everyone had a good 2011 as well. Happy New Year to all reading this!

2011-12-24T12:24:00.000-06:00

Winter break in Kirksville this year!

The End of Fall Semester

2011-12-14T09:36:00.001-06:00

One calls me his little brother. The other one calls me a panda.

Home is wherever you are

2011-12-02T16:42:00.000-06:00

I gave myself a haircut recently. Just my bangs. Contemplating if I should get a proper haircut or wait till next May. Hmm, tough. Though it would be pretty cool to see how much more my hair will grow and how weird I'll look.

Anyway, I hope everyone is doing well! I'm doing alright. Once finals end I'll be awesome.

The Goldfish Song

2011-11-27T20:52:00.000-06:00

Check out my current desktop wallpaper! This was taken at the Field Museum in Chicago. Went to Chicago for a couple of days during Thanksgiving break and it was so much fun. So much to do and so much to see. I'd love to go back there again.

I had a pretty good break doing the usual - exploring, hanging out and not doing homework. Yeap, those stuff. Had a really, really good break. I only wish it was longer. But it's okay because winter break is coming up! No confirmed plans yet but I'm looking forward to it. All I have to do now is go through 3 weeks of non-stop studying and finals. It's not that bad.. right? I can do this.

Sorry I've been so disconnected from everyone back at home. It's not that I don't want to keep in touch but it's work that's keeping me away. I really want to talk to everyone, promise. Over winter break, hopefully. I really miss everyone. A lot.

Bucket List

2011-11-10T22:28:00.005-06:00

Just a little something for myself. (And also because I have to)

1. Bungee jumping in New Zealand (yes, it has to be NZ)
2. Get a bartender job
3. Backpacking for a month
4. Attend a wine tasting party
5. Compile all of my favorite pictures and make a CD
6. Make chicken rice (the roasted kind!)
7.

Oh darling, I wish you were here

2011-11-06T00:43:00.002-05:00

Ah, the good times.

ps, credits to photog Roxie.

2011-11-04T11:58:00.001-05:00

eeeee, I malas.

2011-10-28T16:15:00.000-05:00

"I love you totally and completely."

Nawww. You don't need fancy words to quote. Heck, you don't even need to quote someone inspirational. I got this quote from that movie, "Knocked Up." Oh the irony.

There I go, stuck in a shell

2011-10-28T16:10:00.001-05:00

So much has been happening and all I really want is some space to breathe. To chill and do my own things. I just want to lay down and do nothing. I want a break, just doing nothing. Like midterm break, when we chilled and just hung out. That was fun. Too bad it was too short.

It's getting cold here. I am in need of warmth. Hug me and keep me warm, please? But you're halfway across the globe from me.

2011-10-20T15:18:00.000-05:00

No reason, I just feel like uploading this picture. I am so bored. In the library, trying to be productive. This is so hard. I'm going to fail everything, drop out of college and be emo for the rest of my life. Nooooo.

You can let your hair down

2011-10-19T14:39:00.000-05:00

The weather is crazy. It's currently transitioning from fall to winter. And no, I am not adapting well. Every time I walk out, I'll be cursing under my breath, chattering. Sigh, no more shorts and tank tops until next April/May. Can't wait to be back next summer, come to think of it. How's everyone doing back at home? Hope you know that you are being missed.

Sailing through the sea

2011-10-16T15:07:00.001-05:00

First birthday away from home! I miss my family. I miss the clowns I call siblings! We're always together on our birthdays but not this year. Nonetheless, it was pretty okay, actually. Hung out with friends, watched tv shows and had dinner with a fun bunch of people. It wasn't very happening but it wasn't dull as well. It was pretty decent, quite satisfied actually. Kind of glad that I didn't go anywhere for the break because 4 days just flew by. Sucks that classes are starting tomorrow. 6 classes tomorrow! Wish me luck.

Oktober

2011-10-02T23:59:00.000-05:00

My bed is so comfy that every single person who lay down on it fell asleep. And that's me on it! Right before I fell asleep in the most awkward position for almost 2 hours. When my roommate came back.

On another note... holy crap it's October already. What the heck happened? How is it that I've been away from home for almost 2 months now? Holy crap.

Sunset and vines

2011-09-14T15:09:00.000-05:00

We are angelic girls and we were brought to the heavens above. Hence, amitabha.

Jokes. We were in the library, taking pictures of ourselves.

If you're not strong enough

2011-09-09T01:31:00.001-05:00

Damn, I have fat legs. And I foresee fatter legs on me if I keep eating like this.

I really should post a proper blog. I wonder. If all these new information is scaring me. If I would get used to it. If I fall into it. I might say one thing now but nothing lasts forever. Things change. People change. I wonder if I'll change. Or rather, if I would change much. If any changes at all, let it be changing for better. And not for worse. I have enough self-respect not to do stupid things. I think.

Hot tea in the Fall

2011-09-07T00:16:00.000-05:00

I really should stop taking pictures of myself and be more productive.

2011-08-24T14:06:00.000-05:00

It's been one week since I left home to start a new chapter in my life. This whole experience has been overwhelming and interesting. I remember crying like I never cried before on the day I left. I really miss my family. All my life I depended on them and now they're suddenly millions of miles away. I know, I know. This is what I wanted. So I get what I wanted and I am determined to make the best out of it. I know I will.

2011-08-11T21:38:00.000-05:00

Hello, meet my new toy, Floyd.

This is not goodbye

2011-08-08T23:58:00.001-05:00

I have the cutest grandmother ever. I'm going to miss her a lot.

2011-08-05T22:22:00.001-05:00

Was cleaning up my junk and I found plenty of cool stuff...

Time flies. Where did it all go?

Can't we pretend just for tonight

2011-07-25T12:14:00.000-05:00

2011-07-21T10:42:00.000-05:00

Dear reader,

Please do me right now. On the kitchen table. In your bed. On the couch. Shoot, I'll even take the floor in front of the T.V. I don't care, I just need you to do me like I've never been done before.

Sincerely, your homework.

Got this from dearblankpleaseblank.com! I really should get off the laptop.

One! i'm biting my tongue

2011-07-21T10:10:00.000-05:00

Old photos make me smile. :)

I find it easier to sit and stare

2011-07-10T05:38:00.000-05:00

Gah, this is going to take forever.

Yay, it's her birthday!

2011-07-08T12:51:00.000-05:00

So hard not to love this girl, honestly.

Happy birthdaaaaaay, WENZ! Hope you enjoyed yourself the other night and on your official birthday! I wish you the bestest of the bestest wishes in the world that you get all your dreams come true. You're a great person and you deserve the best. I'm happy to be celebrating your birthday with you this year and oh, you looked lovely on both days. I love you and you know it.

I swear it's you

2011-07-05T00:33:00.000-05:00

I've gots soupss! :D

Okay it's really hard to have a photo booth and not upload your pictures anywhere. Heh.

2011-07-03T04:42:00.000-05:00

My sunday afternoon - listening to music, editing pictures, eating Gobstopper and camwhoring. Ah, bliss.

Living on an all time high

2011-07-03T00:44:00.002-05:00

I am having a superb time with this new baby of mine. Look at the picture!! It's gorgeous. More to come, people!

This ain't Tinseltown

2011-06-30T12:37:00.001-05:00

Wow. I mean really, wow. Just, wow. Wow.

My fonts are really ugly on my new baby. Okay, time to synchronize my fonts to make them pretty! All I have to do is just figure this out...

Anyway, I lied. I said more pictures will be up and still no pictures. Been so caught up with work, life and drama, haven't had time for this blog. As for work, I've gone from fulltime to parttime. Don't want to work all the time, but I still want to work. Life? Well, there's finally a path, thankfully. And drama? Same ol', same ol'.

I'm tired of things, tired of having the same argument, and tired of people. I wonder why do I even bother at times. Honesty are for those who deserved it, plus it's a whole lot better than truckloads of lies. Unfortunately, misinterpretation happens and all I really want to do is run away from the situation. But, run, I shall not. I hate to leave things unsettled, especially when a new chapter is about to start. However, people reject me and situations do not give me the permission to make things right. I cannot even begin to talk about this frustration of mine.

All the negativities aside, I just got back from Singapore! Yes, yes, it feels like the millionth time I've been there. But the trip was good. Some drama went down, but all in all, good. Lessons were learned and future notes are made. Shopping and sightseeing were definitely my favorite part. Pictures will be up soon, I promise! As soon as I spend more time with my baby. Hence, my advance apologies to all for keeping everyone waiting.

2011-06-12T13:03:00.001-05:00

busy, busy, busy. i've been so busy with work i barely have time for myself. fortunately, i'm leaving soon and i'll get to rest and chill at home! woohoo!

Dog Days Are Over

2011-05-17T12:21:00.002-05:00

Just a little something I found in my hard drive. I wanted to upload pictures here... but it's not working. Next post then, since I promised that I am to share more pictures with my faithful readers.

So recently, I was asked whether I was missing school. Do I?

Erm well, I am missing the people so terribly. I miss skipping school. I miss the terrible things I used to do. So, do I miss school? No. I'm glad it's over. If I had a chance do it all over again, I wouldn't. Undoubtedly, wonderful memories were made those days. However, there is a fine line between reminiscing the good old days and dwelling in the past.

I have memories - but only a fool stores his past in the future. (David Gerrold, n.d.)

Pictures soon! Blame it on ~~the a-a-a-a-a-alcohol~~ procrastination. Okay I swear, more pictures will be up.

In a way, it's all a matter of time

2011-05-05T10:58:00.000-05:00

So, I've been busy with work. So busy I hardly have time for myself, sigh. I guess it's good because then I don't have to think about the shits that's going on in life right now. Unfortunately, bad also because then I won't be able to do my own things and to plan ahead. I really should quit soon because as much as I want the money, I need time way more to do my own things. Two more months to go! Let's hope I survive.

Maybe I should take up another challenge, just to keep this blog going. Hmm.

Who died and made you king of anything

2011-04-23T08:15:00.000-05:00

Le sigh, life has been depressing lately. Maybe I'm just being too emotional. Maybe I'm overthinking. Maybe I'm just being stupid. But life hasn't given me much to look forward to recently. Hence, I fill my time by working. At least when I work, I don't have to think about all the bullshit I have to go through.

Honestly, I'm trying to be as optimistic as possible. I'm telling myself that things will be okay and things will fall into its places eventually. If its meant to be, it'll happen. Unfortunately, life has been so depressing I cannot think straight. My mind is in a horrible state and I need to recharge before another catastrophe happens. Believe me, that is the last thing I want right now after several of them.

Sometimes, I think people just don't get me.

2011-04-12T00:48:00.001-05:00

So this is how I look like nowadays - sloppy and pretty much lifeless as we speak. My life is out of balance. I am trying my best to juggle a few things at once but time is running out and I am failing. If only time would slow down so that I can restore the balance in my life. Give me more time, please.

On another note, I need an adventure. However, I'm going to need a partner in crime, a few maybe. Any volunteers? I'm serious about the adventure.

Day 10;

2011-04-07T23:46:00.000-05:00

One person you can trust.

After some thought at this, I guess I have to say the person I can trust most is myself. From time to time again, people around me managed to let me down. There are some minor ones. Some over and over again. And some completely robbed me of the trust I had once and for all. In truth, my little heart has been broken every now and then but not necessarily by a lover, instead by close friends and family unfortunately. I told myself that all I have to do it suck it up and not take it too hard because things will get I better - I would feel better. It worked most of the time. I suppose, experiences made my heart stronger.

This is not me going against the close ones around me. I still trust people around me. I do, but not completely. Instead, this is my way of saying that the person I can count on most is myself. I learned not to rely on people too much and not to cling, because you'll never know when someone is going to let you down until it happens.

Ten Day Challenge DONE! Thank you to the readers for keeping up with me. Till the next blog post!

Day 9;

2011-04-07T10:48:00.000-05:00

Two things you wish you could do.

1. Know where I'll be going for uni and start working on it! Honestly, I think I can't wait for uni. Bumming around for too long isn't all that great.
2. Travel, travel and just travel. Explore new cultures, adapting to a new environment and be part of it.

Day 8;

2011-04-06T10:25:00.000-05:00

Three words you can’t go a day without using.

1. Hi/hello/hey
2. Please
3. Hungry

There's really not much to say about this one :P

Day 7;

2011-04-05T10:49:00.004-05:00

Four memories you won’t forget.

Hmm, this is a tough one. And I mean really tough. But since I don't have much time... I won't be elaborating further. It shall be four of many unforgettable memories! Cooperate and don't ask as well :P

1. The nights we stayed up just talking, getting to know each other better.
2. The day I turned seventeen and was surrounded by almost all the people I loved then.
3. The crazy adventures we had that really proved the great friends we are to each other and has strengthen our bond ever since.
4. The times when we joked and teased with a mutual understanding without having any feelings hurt.

Day 6;

2011-04-04T10:08:00.000-05:00

Five things you can’t live without.

1. Air-conditioner/fan for a spoiled city girl.
2. Computer to provide numerous information from world news to social gossip.
3. Cellphone for emergencies.
4. People who shaped my life and made life as it is now.
5. My bed, i think. Don't know where else I can fall to at the end of any day.

Correction, its actually things I can't live without at the moment.

Day 5;

2011-04-03T09:35:00.000-05:00

Six songs that you’re addicted to.

1. Fact Fiction by Mads Langer
2. Sing For Me by Yellowcard
3. Let It Be Me by Ray LaMontagne
4. Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
5. Coming Around Again by Simon Webbe
6. Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat

Why only six when I've got more? :(

Day 4;

2011-04-02T08:27:00.000-05:00

Seven fears/phobias.

1. Not being able to answer questions asked by students (educational questions by the way!).
2. Little creepy crawlies in the dark.
3. Disappointing the people around me by never being good enough.
4. Having nothing to look forward to.
5. Being stuck in the middle of nowhere, not knowing which road to take next. (both literally and figuratively)
6. Not having anyone by my side when I have to leave the world.
7. To leave people I love behind.

Day 3;

2011-04-01T10:44:00.000-05:00

Eight things that annoy you.

1. Kids not getting their corrections right.
2. People not getting my jokes or sarcasm.
3. Having to explain to people a billion times what I'm trying to say.
4. When jealousy takes over a person.
5. Jokes going terribly wrong, then it gets serious and awkward.
6. That indecisive part of me when it comes to making important decisions, especially when it comes to food.
7. When there's nothing good to watch on television.
8. People not putting enough effort to make things happen.

Day 2;

2011-03-31T10:37:00.001-05:00

Nine things you do every day.

1. Brush my teeth
2. Make my bed (every single day, without fail!)
3. Decide on what to wear for the day
4. Stare at my balding hair in the mirror, hoping more hair would grow
5. Drink something chocolate - hot chocolate, chocolate milk, milo
6. Wonder if I'll sleep earlier that night
7. Think of what I'll be having for lunch/dinner
8. Wish my boss would pay me more money
9. Go to bed, hoping I would fall asleep soon

Day 1;

2011-03-30T10:57:00.000-05:00

Ten random facts about yourself.

1. When I experiment with cooking, I always go for cheese. Why? Because cheese makes everything yummy.
2. I am currently working as a teacher/tutor. Definitely not something I would've thought of before going off to uni, but I quite like it. Hate the pay, but love the kids. Well, not all of them.
3. I bring a packet of chocolate milk, sometimes milo, to work every day.
4. Procrastination is my biggest my problem.
5. Size 5, my size, the perfect size when trying on footwear.
6. I wish for a flatter tummy, a smaller butt, thinner thighs, and sexier legs. But I never do anything about it.
7. I break hearts. At times, not intentionally and at times, for their own good.
8. I don't have a favorite food. I just like eating. I wish I could eat freely without having to think about the cost of it and how it would affect my weight.
9. Contrary to many beliefs, I don't like sleeping. I mean, sure, I sleep a lot. I also enjoy it from time to time. Sleeping is an activity but unfortunately, I wished I slept less. So many things are/were left undone thanks to it and it is the culprit for my procrastination most of the time.
10. As a kid, I used to think that everyone in the world were aliens from other planets out to get me. Even my own parents - their constant nagging led me to it!

A Ten Day Challenge

2011-03-30T10:36:00.000-05:00

Day 1: Ten random facts about yourself.
Day 2: Nine things you do every day.
Day 3: Eight things that annoy you.
Day 4: Seven fears/phobias.
Day 5: Six songs that you’re addicted to.
Day 6: Five things you can’t live without.
Day 7: Four memories you won’t forget.
Day 8: Three words you can’t go a day without using.
Day 9: Two things you wish you could do.
Day 10: One person you can trust.

Hmm, thought I spiced thing up a little. ;)

Amoys in Singapore

2011-03-29T11:59:00.000-05:00

Went to Singapore recently with a bunch of good friends! It was pretty good. I should probably upload pictures soon.

Need stop being so lazy and start selecting pictures to upload!

2011-03-05T23:40:00.000-06:00

you know, it's nice not to be forgotten. to be considered and have your opinions respected. unfortunately, that doesn't happen all the time, because in life, someone will forget you. they probably wouldn't ask you for your opinions and may not even acknowledge your presence much.

sucks, doesn't it? sigh.

2011-02-24T04:26:00.000-06:00

One evening while we were watching Phineas and Ferb..

Did that guy just bribed you??
No, he just caught my attention in a monetary fashion.

2011-02-20T11:06:00.000-06:00

So here I am, 18 going on 19, confused about life. I feel like life is going nowhere for me. I am going nowhere. I'm not living life. Life is living me. I'm not making the best out of it. I don't know what I'm doing here. I don't know what I want out of life.

Should I even be thinking about this now? At some point, I will. So why not now? But the thought of it depresses me. Ugh.

A lot has happened recently. Or maybe not much. I don't know. I really don't know. I need to get life moving. Immediately.

2011-02-08T10:32:00.000-06:00

less than three you, okay?
3?
<3. like nigahiga
less than?
HAHA i want to pat (slap, in other words) you right now
♥ = <3 = less than three
oh i get it!
less than three you too

Some people can be so funny.

2011-02-05T14:25:00.002-06:00

note to self : never ever, ever, ever have tea for breakfast, lunch and dinner because then you'll be up at 4 in the morning, blogging.

The Year of the Rabbit

2011-02-05T02:54:00.005-06:00

A little late but, Happy Chinese New Year to all! :D

ps, i may or may not. this is all very confusing!

We'll be alright, I hope

2011-01-27T12:13:00.001-06:00

I. Forgot. About. My. Blog. And to think that at one point of my life I actually put in a lot of effort into blogging. Ah well, interest/passion comes and go.

So! How's everyone? Is anyone reading my blog at all? No matter, to those who are still reads, hope ya'll are doing good. :) I've been busy and I'm forcing myself to enjoy it. Gah.

All I know is I cannot wait till the end of this and start doing things I really want to do - sleep, eat, read freely! Sucks to constantly be reminded of things I've yet to complete and how time is running out. Ah crap. If I continue to sleep like this I will never get things done. I wonder how I managed one to two hours of sleep back in the days when I failed - many times, by the way - to force myself out of bed after four hours of sleep now.

Oh, and first picture of me this 2011! Not the best picture, but whatever. The scarf was really pretty okay! Also that was my first proper hang out session with my friends in awhile. I've been busy. We've been busy. And heck, do I miss them. I am in need of more catching up session with the people around me.

Bloody apps, do yourself cuz' I don't wanna do you!

2011-01-21T04:47:00.001-06:00

Ugh, I absolutely loathe construction. The worst part is that my area is full of it like my new next door neighbor (ugh!). And now even my workplace is affected. Construction is a nuisance, especially in the afternoon when people are actually trying to work. Think of the children! Now I'm feeling rather insecure that I don't want to be home alone. At all.

One Tuesday afternoon,

2011-01-18T01:01:00.001-06:00

So, just minutes ago... I was getting some milk from the refrigerator and then I heard some kids outside my house yelling "HELLO?!?! ARE YOU THERE??? ITS JUST US!!". WHAT THE HECK?? I already have to face screaming kids at work three (sometimes four) days a week and I still have to hear them on my day off?! I looked outside the window just to discover it was Jo Loh and her sister. Why am I not surprised.

Hahaha, just for laughs :P

I wished for you

2011-01-17T22:25:00.000-06:00

I know I said I wouldn't and I really don't want to. But sometimes I wished I would trust myself more. Not for me, but for you. For the people around me. Maybe, I'm being too hard on myself but I won't deny the truth. About time I start taking chances and learn to trust myself.

2011-01-09T21:46:00.000-06:00

So many things going through my mind right now and so little time for everything. Yet, here I am blogging and procrastinating. I think I'm even considering shutting down facebook for a little while. In fact, maybe I should. Maybe then, I'll be able to get more work done.

Sigh, I'm trying to refrain from blogging too much which explains the dearth of insightful posts. Till the next time.

Shine a light on her

2011-01-04T21:41:00.001-06:00

Thank you for being sweet, dearest. Really appreciate it. :) Nah, I'm not emo or upset or whatever. Confused, yes. Damn, I wish I was confused because of hormones but its the future that's worrying me. The fact that I cannot see where I'll be end of this year itself scares the crap out of me.

I need to start being more appreciative towards people. I take things for granted too often. I'm sorry all. I love everyone and I'm glad to have met everyone. Thank you all, hope you'll all forgive my wrongdoings in the past. Had a moment of epiphany yesterday when a friend apologized to me and received news that two people I know (okay, not really) had passed away. I need to start being more appreciative and this shall be my new year resolution! :)

Oh! Today shall be my first official day at work. I love how flexible my working hours are, giving me plenty of time to sleep in. And no I did not wake up like 10 minutes ago.... maybe. Its gonna be a long day with the kids. I hope I don't screw it up, again. Wish me luck!

You with your lion heart

2011-01-02T22:17:00.000-06:00

So, today's the first day of school. Its Julian's first day in secondary school, Roxie's first day in her last year of secondary school, Dex's first day of his PMR year and Weiming's first day of uni. And here I am, sitting my butt off in front of the computer screen without any plans of school/university yet.

Oh well, going off for my lunch date in a bit. Heh, Dex, i is not eating alone :P

oh hello there 2011!

2011-01-02T09:37:00.001-06:00

HAPPY 2011 dear readers! x.

2010 has been one heck of a year, no? I'm glad to have went through it with people I met way before 2010. Awesome la you people. Don't change okay? Thank you for sticking around, really.

ccy, wenz, phoebs, gie, cass, micha, sumin, nanie, yien, hueywern, savina, beeba, elaine, dyana, hana, kky, jesse, priscy, manyee, deidre, rachel, suetmei, nadira, adam, eunicesh, queenie, yush, quiero, sweet and more. thank you all :)

On the contrary, I love how my 2010 has been about meeting new people. People I never thought I'd be friends with turned out to be people I'd like to see more of in years to come. Though there were friendships that didn't last long but it was good while it lasted. So to all the people I met in 2010, thank you!

mingy, olikoh, joloh, immy, yanleng, eleen, maynwe, christine, hillary, dex, ngai, yiujin, thomas, andrew, harv, yu-eesan, josephine, jeremy(s), yeekan, lousy ehsan, jinn, dorothy, esther, ashvin, sulaiman, akmal, azri, chungwye, victor, isaac, sueann, rachel(s), phuiping, phuiyuk, caezun and more. thank you all :)

A little late, but hey, better than nothing. 2010 has been one heck of a journey but I have a feeling that 2011 will be better. No regrets (okay, maybe some). I wouldn't say 2010 has been great and I wouldn't say its been horrible. It was a refreshing change, I would say. Sadly, the year just seem to have gone by so quickly. It was almost like yesterday that I first stepped into TCSH, feeling all scared and excited at the same time. And now I'm done with pre-u ready to take on new challenges. So bring it on, 2011!

ps, sorry if i left anyone out! you're still important, nonetheless :)

2010-12-27T10:19:00.000-06:00

so what car are you drving now ?
i drive the CLK!!
FULAMAK !!
what model ?
HAHAHAHHA
you know what is CLK or not
mercedes CLK
200 ? 230 ?
HAHAHHAHAHAHA
no
Cute Little Kelisa
WTH !!

little boy/me

HAHAHAHAHAHA so cute.

2010-12-23T09:11:00.000-06:00

What's worse than finishing SPM and not knowing what to do? Finishing pre-u and still not know what to do. I really don't. Ask me again next May. And maybe by then, I'll know.

In an empty room, hold on

2010-12-23T00:47:00.000-06:00

Because every once in a while, we all feel left out.

Just keep running from tomorrow

2010-12-22T06:04:00.002-06:00

picture taken with Danny's camera.

A few nights ago during the candle reflection, I couldn't figure out what was my biggest downfall of 2010. Couple of days ago, a friend chose me to share about his biggest downfall. And the day after that, I discovered my biggest downfall.

Sigh, I am my worst critic.

A million miles away

2010-11-29T09:37:00.000-06:00

Once upon a time ago, I wanted to become a writer. Then I wanted to become an artist. But all those dreams died because my English sucked and I could draw no more than a stick figure. Dreams are fragile. The best possible way to avoid getting your dreams crushed is by being realistic. And that's what I'm trying to do now.

Daydreamer

2010-11-26T04:21:00.000-06:00

Free haircut, courtesy of Miss Roxie. thankfully, not too bad. prom tomorrow!! :D

2010-11-23T23:33:00.000-06:00

Oh my. My blog used to be the only thing I kept going for the past few years. Heck, why am I not doing more? Been so busy for the past few weeks. Months, in fact. So much had happened and I don't know where to start. Thus, its gonna take some time for proper updates. So hang in there, people! I'll be back.

Ps, have I mention that I have TONS of pending pictures?

Count by zeros to ten

2010-11-02T04:56:00.000-05:00

Made a list of things to do after exams today. And its a long list, I have to say. Now I can't wait. I will get through this. Just a few more days. Holy shit. A few more days.

Its just a moment of change

2010-10-30T01:07:00.000-05:00

Tell me again, why am I not gay? Because if I was, I would so propose to her!

Definitely one of the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me, really. All these years, you've always been around. I don't know where to even begin to thank you for all the wonderful things you've done. You're the best, you know that? Can I please keep you for many, many years to come? Pretty, pretty please? I love you and you know that :)

Every ounce of me, screaming out

2010-10-27T06:01:00.001-05:00

Yes, there are 5 countdowns on my desktop and i'm not doing shit about it. Those are not my books, by the way. One year ago I was freaking out about not studying for SPM and now here I am again. I don't know why am I slacking when finals are next week. In fact, I spent about an hour yesterday clearing my desktop and changing wallpapers. Isn't my wallpaper pretty? I like the picture. It reflects the messy person who took the shot.

Actually thinking about it now, I'm feeling a little apprehensive. Should probably refrain from going online and the teevee. Must control self. Sigh. Must stop whining and get more work done. Tomorrow's Thursday already! Oh time, why fly so fast?

ps, don't think i'm restoring my chatbox anytime soon. too much spam and i like it this way.

The Final Straw

2010-10-24T08:11:00.002-05:00

HB3 10'

Classes are over and finals are in a week's time. A proper post will have to wait. All these mixed emotions in me. One year seem to have gone by so quickly. Oh well. A short post will have to do for the time being, for I have to focus on my finals. I'm going to need miracles.

Driving slow on sunday morning, he sang

2010-10-16T05:03:00.004-05:00

Millions and billions of thank you to those who made my 18th good. One heck of a day, I'd say. Mostly, I'm grateful to have wonderful people around me; the ones I met this year turned out to be friends I'd like to keep and the ones who never left.

To those who remembered, thank you. To those who did not but had facebook reminder, thank you as well. To those who I thought would care more... yeah, well, I'm sorry too. Nevertheless, those who actually cared made it all better.

I cannot imagine having to go through my 17th year without them. You know who you are :)

ps, pictures will be up late. very late. it'll be up when its up. finals are coming up and i need to spend less time on the internet, more on the books.

Life full of laughter

2010-10-11T18:50:00.003-05:00

By Joanne Chong and Andrea Yong

Caterpillar in the tree

2010-10-02T22:15:00.002-05:00

Guess what's new with me? I suck at camwhoring now. I used to be pretty good. Wasn't the best, but I sure wasn't very bad either. I managed to get good angles several times and people have complimented my pictures. Then again, that was when I still had skills. Now, gone case. Which is why I don't camwhore much nowadays or post up new profile pictures so often.

I'd like to believe that maturity had taken away my skills. Probably not, but still. Oh come on, let the poor girl believes what she wants to! And maybe in time, I'll be able to camwhore like never before.

To answer most of you, yes, I used to look like that. Don't comment. Oh wait, you can't. I took off my chatbox, if you haven't notice. It'll be back. I hate having to delete spam all the time so my chatbox will take a rest for a while.

Anyone noticed that the year is flying by so quickly?

Of smoothies and talks

2010-09-25T04:25:00.002-05:00

The smoothie Eunice and I made! Well.. actually her. I just watched. But it was gooood. I've been spending time with her and I like it. She makes me happy :D

The Week's Gone

2010-09-25T04:14:00.003-05:00

I think I'm liking this new Blogger layout. It looks good. More space! Nice.

Anyways, trials finished yesterday. It went... well... could've been better. If I studied earlier. Sigh. I'm always doing this to myself. When I visited a few old teachers even some of them went, "amazing how you pull it off at the very last minute". Bloody amazing that I'm still doing this last minute I'd say. Oh dear, time to shake this off.

But before that, a few more posts coming up! Pray for it!

I need another story

2010-09-10T08:58:00.003-05:00

Shit, has anyone seen my fan? :(

sigh, been feeling very demotivated and uninspired lately. i've been wasting time, that's for sure. and now the gf and i are complaining to each other about it. oh god, i need someone to slap me. snap out of it, jo!

Melody with no words

2010-09-07T22:43:00.000-05:00

Some people mistakenly confuse openness with honesty thinking that they are the same thing. Honesty is saying the truth whenever asked for it, openness is saying the truth without being asked for it.

In a blink of an eye

2010-08-31T03:13:00.000-05:00

Happy Merdeka, people!

August has been preeetty crazy. So a brief runthrough of the month : Catch up dinner(s), the Apartment, catch up lunch, strawberry puree, Genting, Australia, organic food, confessions, awkward hugs, dramas, the best friend left, USA, tears, handbrakes, gossips, koko krunch, babysitting, tests and more tests, etc.

Holy crap.

And I have this feeling I'm not going to like September much. So much to do in so little time. Time, will you just slow down already.

Far away from memories

2010-08-29T09:42:00.000-05:00

I'm easily amused by the little things in life. Ah, I feel like a kid again :D

So today I got excited at the idea of having pizza for dinner, I watched a little of Barbie as Rapunzel and I played Plants vs Zombies. Oh and Phoebs said I look cute. Probably because I look like a kid. My oh my, must be from all the babysitting.

For the past few days, I've been occupied with my boys. Bry and Jay. And boy do they crack me up. Sent them to school for two days and here's what happened...

friend/Bry

*silence*

So, are you guys always this quiet?

Nope.

Then you guys should talk more!

*more silence*

And another one at home...

sister/Bry/Jay

So, is drug good?

Bad

Bad

Smoking?

Bad

Bad

Not doing homework?

Bad

Bad

Doing homework?

Good

Good

Shopping?

Good

Bad

Hahaha! Bry, oh how we think alike. Kids these days. After days of hardcore babysitting, I think I've decided that... I do not want to have kids. At least not too soon. Kids are cute but they are a lot of work. I wonder how my parents put up with us. I guess I'll find out when I become a parent myself. And that will be.. at least ten years from now.

So for the time being, I'll just play more Uno.

Dawn creeping up

2010-08-23T10:56:00.002-05:00

Haha so cute.

I can never seem to find the right things to blog about. Which explains most of my pointless, short posts. I already have a few drafts but I never seem to post it up. Not sure why, actually. I guess fear of who might read it and the questions I'll have to face when people ask about my blog posts. Comments, even. And sooo, I apologize for the lack of proper updates.

One day, I shall blog like before... when I find my blogging mojo. Or not. Maybe blogging is coming to an end for me. Time to keep things down, I suppose.

Its a party in the USA

2010-08-21T03:34:00.000-05:00

Dear big USA, please be nice to my best friend. She's so friendly and bubbly that you can't help being her friend too. But return her to her home in 9 months, okay. I want to see her back because I miss her.

All the best, Angie.

It's alright and it's coming along

2010-08-15T08:57:00.000-05:00

So, I've been pretty happy these days. I mean, I should be right? If you must know, some things are going well now. Though not everything. But hey, I guess that's life. There's ups and there's downs. Because without the downs, there won't be any ups. So all I'm doing is just taking life as it comes. I'm going to let things fall into its own place and see how it goes from there.

Let's just smile like idiots for now :)

Fear falls away

2010-08-01T04:10:00.002-05:00

you always want what you can't have.

crap, i hope i don't get myself into any shit. can't handle it yet, not mentally prepared for it. especially not emotionally prepared, for that matter.

2010-07-26T11:47:00.004-05:00

blog is temporarily down due to some technical problems. however it will be resolved in no time so just hang in there, fellow readers. and sorry for the inconvenience caused. happy blog-hopping!

[1 August 2010]

ps : no, no, still not fixed yet. too lazy to do so and no time :(

My heart's in motion

2010-07-18T05:05:00.002-05:00

This feels overdue but what the heck, I'm gonna post it anyways.

Last Thursday, after class, I rushed home just so I could celebrate Wenz's 18th birthday. Promised that I would celebrate on that day itself since.. ages ago I think. Glad I kept my promise because I had tons of fun. Thank you, you and you and you :)

There she is! The one in the dress who just turned legal recently! And beside, is my other gf.

We went to Lot 10 to visit *ahemBABIahem* a friend. And on the rooftop, was a really cool looking empty area suited for a photoshoot. If it wasn't for that bloody security, I would've done it. Oh well, some other time then. But of course, we still proceeded with our photoshoot plans that day and went to the streets of Bukit Bintang! Just a mini one though.

We had dinner at Nando's. Small in size, bigger in flavour!

She's starting to open up to it. Though a little upset erm.. never mind me :P

And just right before we leave.

Last Saturday, we had a dinner party for Wenz because we love her so. The planning process was hilarious when things went wrong then it all got better again. It was all good. The people who helped me out when our original plan went wrong, thank you so very much. And to those who turned up, it was good seeing everyone again. I sure miss the good ol' days with them.

We ended up at The Apartment. It was pretty good actually, slightly better than expected.

She had no idea we were all behind this. Though she had her suspicions. Then again, why wouldn't she? She's such a smartass, who by the way no longer needs gay friend because we love her and we're all here for her ;)

Group shot.

Then we were joined by the kids. Great. And I just made myself sound ridiculously old. I'm not! :P

Seriously, Soo Yee is always the one cutting cakes. She's really good at it, ain't she.

And this little kid here is Deidre. She's the cutest, I tell ya.

Sumin, you sexy thang over there ;)

My sistas! S2

Watched Eclipse on that day itself. With the twilight saga buddies! It wasn't too bad, really.

And another one before going home.

Thank goodness we still hang out together though after many months apart. Its good to know that some friendships never end. I hope that we'll last :)

Its been ages since I had a long post dominated by pictures! I like doing this. But it takes too much time. Which reminds me, I should probably blog less. I've got so much to do in so little time. Heck, this is what I get for procrastinating all the time. I'll probably put up more pictures soon. Made a few cool discoveries recently. Hope to be making more though.

ps, i ain't switching to tumblr. I like it here :)

Eclipse of the heart

2010-07-11T00:40:00.000-05:00

This is so adorable I just had to post it up! Ain't she adorable? Its my current msn picture and people actually thought it was me. Hahaha!

It was so good that my tongue got burnt. Ouch.

More to come, people! This time I promise, more pictures! Just wait for it :)

ps, isquiggle of course we still read your blog! faithful reader here okay :P and you! *points at tall and hot indian girl* yeah, you. you know what i want. don't make me come after you. i know where you live! :P and as for the rest, more catch up sessions? friday nights? :)

Live high, live mighty

2010-07-08T09:46:00.002-05:00

Happy 18th Birthday, dearest Wenz.

Thank you for always being there and for listening. You're the best wifey ever. Don't know what I'd do without you. Seriously. And I hope to be there for you whenever, wherever. All the best in everything! Have a little faith and it'll go a long way. Happieeee Birthday, once more. And you know that I wuv you :)

I'm gonna get by on the high road

2010-07-03T00:30:00.000-05:00

Feelings can grow, but they can go away too.

I love how some songs never get old.

Its easier than telling the truth

2010-06-26T03:45:00.001-05:00

I guess no matter how open I try to be, people who play with other people's feelings sucked big time. Then again, who am I to judge? I have no confirmation whatsoever. I should just zip it up.

*yawns*

For the first time in days, I slept before midnight yesterday. Something I should try to keep up more often. Damn, this week's been crazy or what? Then again, every week is another crazy week. Just another manic ~~monday~~ week.

Aaaand, I'm still yawning. And hungry. And bored. And lazy.

Oh god, am I lifeless or what.